often i like the idea of writing, but i dont know what to write. it has occurred to me that in order to call myself a writer, i need to actually write things down rather than simply thinking them. that makes me only a thinker. unfortunately, publication frightens me. having bought completely into the contractual power of written agreements, i constantly feel that i must draft my writing before i write any of it down. which of course results in many revisions and eventual loss of the idea altogether because i have mulled it over so long ive run out of time to actually transcribe it. here, then, i have made a small commitment to attempt to write what comes into my mind as it comes into my mind in order to train myself to write. again. // i will admit to having developed a number of 'bad' habits of late. without entering into excessive specificity, tendencies towards unhealthy behaviour and unproductive thought patterns have begun to plague me on a regular basis. all seemingly with my consent.